let me begin by saying I am going to do my best not to offend anyone but we all know I am treading on water over here if I have to mention a disclaimer. However, this blog is my outlet and well my ramblings.
With that being said, in the past 2-3 years a whole lot has changed for me.. like my last name for instance. I went from the typical college student (participating in large amounts of partying which I am completely ashamed of) to a wife, active church member, law assistant, grad student.
About three years ago, I was completely lost. I probably couldn't tell you the last time I had been to church. I got saved when I was 8 so I have had a personal relationship with my savior for quite sometime. However, I chose to live for myself and was pretty much your party-going, crazy, and simply stupid teenager. To say the least, my life was in shambles. I was utterly miserable. I even attempted counciling a few times which led to no answers. Well I knew the answer, my relationship with the Lord was on it's last string.
I was waitressing at the time and these two couples continuously came into the restaurant and would invite me to church. One day I actually studied the track they left me rather than throwing it away and noticed they went to a church that also has a school which my little sister attends. I ended up attending my sisters Christmas performance, and then sunday service, then sunday night, then Wednesday. I seriously couldn't get enough. I imagine this is what it feels like when your starving and a filet mignon is placed in front of you, you can't stop.
I got baptized and become a member in February of that year. From August-February everything had changed. I knew I had found what was missing. However, I deeply struggled with leaving my old life style of partying and what not & I was scared to death of what all of my friends were thinking about me. I was far from perfect and had a long way to go..i still do.
flash back-Chris & I were friends all throughout high school. We met in the Dominos line my freshman year. he had long hair, I thought he was cute but it was nothing more than a silly crush and few flirtatious texts here and there. We were always just friends. Fast forward: Chris got out of the navy and asked me on a date. I blew him off but he was persistant so finally I caved. He dropped me off at my dorm and I had my last first kiss with the most charming boy. That was march. We were engaged by November and married on New years eve. 9 e x t r e m e l y fast but beautiful months.
Some of my friends & family questioned my sanity and asked what the rush was. They thought I was crazy & pregant, i mean who does this? me. & they thought planning a wedding in 6 weeks was impossible, I am here to tell you friends, it is completely possible. & when you know, you just know. I could of married Chris 14 days into our relationship. I just knew. we clicked in an unexplainable way. In the end, my friends & fam seriously were the main reason a 6 week wedding plan was possible. They were beyond helpful & i love them for that.
Considering very few of my friends have gotten married I sometimes I think it is hard for my friends to understand that my interests have drastically changed and so have my priorities. I no longer have the urge to stay out til 2 am (truthfully 11 is pushing it) I work 40 hours a week and attend school full-time in a masters program, I am involved at church, I have dinner to cook, I have a house that desperately needs to be cleaned, laundry, my family, my husbands family, bills, a marriage, and whole lotta responsbility. I feel overextended on most days. I feel rushed with my time. but i have never been happier or more fulfilled.
I am writing this ridicously long post mostly because I feel I have to defend this life I chose from time to time.. and I just dont think its necessary. We live in a generation that has such a skewed percpetion of marriage and family it is really disheartening. I am so thankful that I do have a solid group of friends and family that have supported Chris & I from day one. Most importantly, I am so happy that I have such a loving husband who never ceases to make me laugh and forced me to go on a date with him 2 March(s) ago.
Okay, thats all for now.